Had to admit, I was kind of demoralise during past 2 training this week. I felt super weak, and kind of start thinking of why am I in the team. I cannot do so many things, like basic jumps;toe-touch, basic stunts;elevator, basic tumbling; front walk-over, basic dismount; pop. It was so bad that I didn't want to be in nationals, pulling the whole team down if I was in. I was really really confused, even the thought of quitting the team.

But seeing everyone working hard, the fun and laughter I have during trainings made me decided that I will not quit the team. Not quit the team, but stay and be a slacker to spot around. I know some would say then its better for me to quit the team.

Ytd aft training, coach announced who was selected for nationals, 16 ppl team with 4 reserves. I wanted to tell kelwin that I don't want to be in nationals, cause I'm afraid I cannot commit, and I kind of lost my determination and motivation to push myself to work hard. I'm getting physically and mentally tired.

But I didn't. I don't want to regret after telling. So decided to give myself a few days to see how thing goes. And I guess I managed to get back the "push" just just now, after finished watching a cheerleading video by Made Mtv.

If cheerleading is an easy sport, everyone would have join and stayed on. Plus I work to hard to where I am today, why should I give up so easily. I still have 6 mths to train on my jumps and build up my physical strength. Even if I am one of the reserves in the end, I did work hard, not given up on myself and the team.

Watched it, its inspirational!

MADE - MTV Shows